a deal

Last night, I promised M. that I would not bite or pick at anything on myself for...well, forever. We shook on it. He looked me in the eye and said, can i trust you? and i said, yes.

And he can. I can think of few things that are more important to me than having his trust but can i just admit that this is SO FREAKIN HARD.

I have caught myself so many times today thoughtlessly going in for a hangnail and forced myself to retreat.

I knew it was an addictive behavior but i didn't realize that i would spend time thinking about how much i would love to chomp off a cuticle. How do you people live like this??